Keep reading the 4th column instructions and write Dishonest and Afraid. --
Use the third step prayer, keep the prayers from the realization clear in your mind, use them if you have trouble setting aside the wrongs of other people, principles or institutions entirely while working on 4th column.
Each time you sit down to work on 4th column read the 5 paragraphs from:
"Referring to our list again ..."
to
"At once, we commence to outgrow fear."